Hi.. After DG and it's like quite late now.. but here to blog.. haha.. Actually, just now I only shared about the more light-hearted things... ... so here to "unload" the more unhappy things..

Actually, I am slightly depressed about some things... I had a few quizzes and a test for my japanese module. Although I have not gotten any of my marks back, I feel that I didn't do well for it... All these quizzes and tests are counted towards my final grade for this module... And i got depressed cos the lecturer actually put up this notice " I checked the test papers and homework submitted yesterday. The lesson test demonstrates how hard you have been working until now. I was so impressed with your effort to learn a new language" ............

Talk about being demoralised, really wished that I had more time and didn't have to handle so many things.. Feel like shouting out to God "God, you either give me more time or you get someone help me in Japanese"

Didn't share this during DG becos I was partly scared that I will start the vicious cycle of wallowing in self-pity again, like last year.. NO NO cannot.. I know God doesn't want this to happen.. He doesn't want me to cry but pick up the pieces. I have gotten myself into this situation and I must get out of it myself. He will help but I must act. He had given me so much more to cheer about.

He has given me,
More strength than weariness
More strength than weakness
More peace than fear
More joy than sadness
More warmth than coldness
More love than any other...

Because of all he had done, I can smile no matter what "shit" I receive from the world.

I can't help remembering some parts of the faith chapter in Hebrew 11 which I memorised during the Nov/Dec 2006 (the u-know-what period) "Faith is... .. believing on the things yet unseen..." Here to share this to unload and release myself for God to heal and do more great works in my life...

"It's all about KEEPING THE FAITH, Sheryl"

ps. feel that I should re-memorise the faith chapter.. forgot a lot.. haha..