:) So glad it's teacher's day! only got 1 tution.. Met up with 2 of my VJC classmates.. went to blade before going for dinner. Really had an excellent time talking with them.



Talk about how the world is unfair and life is full of things that shouldn't happen but is happening, like some things that happen in VJC.. People in authority mis-using their authority for their personal "pleasure" or "motive". Jas was so shocked. She felt very strongly about the things she heard and was asking "How can this happen?... ..." Being in law faculty is really extremely suitable for her, she will make a excellent lawyer... .... haha can't help thinking of the phase pastor always use "Life is Unfair but God is Good"



Next, we talk about gays and lesbians. Do we accept them? We talk about how government policies contradict their stand on gays and lesbians.. how they say that they "accept" them in the society yet the current policy says otherwise.. But we understand the government's reasons of doing some stuff like falling birth rates, and sending the wrong messages to young and impressionable minds...... ........
We also shared our personal thoughts and views about it. Both of them accept gays and lesbians, and think that it is not unnatural.. hmmmm.. I admit that I accept gays and lesbians becos they are my friends but I think it is unnatural.
I confess that up to today I still get a "intangible" feeling about it. Even though I have experienced... ...a lesbian asking me to be her ----- even though she knows I am straight... ... a close friend telling me she was a lesbian... .. a friend who had a sex change operation... being in a girls' school for 10 years... I still am unable to understand some things. God, give me to wisdom to deal/think of those issues in a godly way because there is a very thin line between right and wrong.



Finally, we came to a more sensitive topic.. religion.. more specifically, God. Much was said.. Darius got the ball rolling by sharing about his spiritual walk (Praise the Lord for bring him back on track). We talked about who God helps and why some things happen the way it happens. Although Jas says that she is a catholic, I would say that her doubts about God were great. A lot of things she say were quite "serious" in a way "Do you believe every single things written in the bible? How can you not question? We need to question and not believe blindly..." Yes, it is human nature to question and ask.. maybe even doubt.. I guess this is all about faith. Believing in the things we cannot understand...



It's a terrific feeling talking to my VJC classmates again.. even though we are like in a tutorial discussion class.. A 5 hour tutorial session that I actually enjoy... haha..
To GOD.. God, your ways are greater than my way. Although it took me so long to understand it, I finally come to comprehend it better. Not fully, but surely.

Hi.. After DG and it's like quite late now.. but here to blog.. haha.. Actually, just now I only shared about the more light-hearted things... ... so here to "unload" the more unhappy things..

Actually, I am slightly depressed about some things... I had a few quizzes and a test for my japanese module. Although I have not gotten any of my marks back, I feel that I didn't do well for it... All these quizzes and tests are counted towards my final grade for this module... And i got depressed cos the lecturer actually put up this notice " I checked the test papers and homework submitted yesterday. The lesson test demonstrates how hard you have been working until now. I was so impressed with your effort to learn a new language" ............

Talk about being demoralised, really wished that I had more time and didn't have to handle so many things.. Feel like shouting out to God "God, you either give me more time or you get someone help me in Japanese"

Didn't share this during DG becos I was partly scared that I will start the vicious cycle of wallowing in self-pity again, like last year.. NO NO cannot.. I know God doesn't want this to happen.. He doesn't want me to cry but pick up the pieces. I have gotten myself into this situation and I must get out of it myself. He will help but I must act. He had given me so much more to cheer about.

He has given me,
More strength than weariness
More strength than weakness
More peace than fear
More joy than sadness
More warmth than coldness
More love than any other...

Because of all he had done, I can smile no matter what "shit" I receive from the world.

I can't help remembering some parts of the faith chapter in Hebrew 11 which I memorised during the Nov/Dec 2006 (the u-know-what period) "Faith is... .. believing on the things yet unseen..." Here to share this to unload and release myself for God to heal and do more great works in my life...

"It's all about KEEPING THE FAITH, Sheryl"

ps. feel that I should re-memorise the faith chapter.. forgot a lot.. haha..